I miss you so much.
Missing someone is when you’re lying awake at night and wishing they were there with you to make you feel okay again, or when you hear a song that you want them to listen to, or when you’re doing something and thinking about how much more fun it would be if that person were there with you. That’s what I feel every day. I know you’re worth the wait but that wait sucks. I can’t promise you that we’ll be happy 24/7 but I do promise that I’ll do my best to make everyday best for you. I can’t say you’ll love everything about me but I’m willing to do my best to improve. Remember no matter what happens I have you, that’s all I could ever want. I want to be the one that makes you smile. I want to be the one that sends you good morning and goodnight texts. The one that you can tell anything to. I want to be the one that you can cry to and know I’ll comfort you. The one that you trust so much that you know even if I get mad I’ll still welcome you with open arms. The one that you get into silly arguments with, but in the end we make up because we realize how ridiculous we were acting. I want to be the one that you get all excited for when you see my name pop up online. I want to be the one that you giggle for whenever you read my texts. I want to be the one that does corny little things for you even if they are extremely embarrassing. I want to be the one to jokingly use ridiculous pick up lines on you. I want to be the best friend that you tell everything to. I want to be the one that gives you sweet kisses and the one that keeps you company when nobody else will. But most of all I want to just be there, next to your side.
To My Future Husband:
I look forward to the movie nights and the moments we lay together in silence. I can’t wait to listen to all sorts of music with you and sing as we cook together. I can’t wait to share each moment of mine with you. I can’t wait to give you my whole heart and know that I have yours too. I can’t wait to read you sappy poetry that makes me cry. Most of all I can’t wait to be able to reach next to me at 3 in the morning when I wake up and feel your innocent warmth. Each night I spend with you will be just another sleep over with my best friend. I don’t know if I’ve met you yet, but I already love you more than you could ever imagine and I still think about you daily. And if we haven’t? I hope we meet soon so I can spend more of my life with you.
A great spouse loves you exactly as you are. An extraordinary spouse helps you grow; inspires you to be, do and give your very best.
To My Future Husband:
I am terrified to be in love. You’re older and more experienced, and
you’ve been engaged. You make me smile and you’ve taken up residence
in my head.
I know I’m not that great with words, but “love” and “you” keep coming
out. I’ve found that kind of wobbly-kneed, stomach-achy, completely
crazy for you, we’re happy kind of love.
To My Future Wife:
Can we sit up all night talking about everything? Can we have jokes that only you and I understand? Can we have a secret handshake? Can I be your diary and you be mine? Can I wipe the tears that fall from your eyes? Can I hold your hand during the brightest and darkest of times? And though they’d be great, can our connection and interaction go beyond the love we’d make or the way our lips taste? Basically, what I’m trying to say is, can you…no, will you be my best friend?
I am jealous of your bedsheets— the ones you wrap yourself in over and over when you are unreasonably cold for the season. I am jealous of the people who get to pass by you in the metro and who will never know your name. They don’t know that they are lucky, that their shoulders touch someone wonderful and generous and kind, someone who makes all of this worth it. I can’t expect everyone to know you, and yet I wish they did. I wish they could. I see people honored with awards and galas and cash prizes, but have any of them ever kissed someone on the forehead and made them feel as though they are good enough just the way they are? I hope so. There should be an award for that.
I want to wake up next to you, eat breakfast with you, play computer games with you, watch movies with you in bed, hold your hand and watch tv, send you cute texts, buy you gifts, nap together, look into your eyes, be with you at sunrise and sunset, cook for you, walk in the rain with you, fall asleep whilst on the phone to you, snuggle in bed, eat tubs of Nutella, kiss you goodnight. And I will be waiting everyday to do it all again.